Wednesday
20Aug2008
Theories Tested
Wednesday, August 20, 2008 at 10:09AM
After sharing what I thought were fabulous theories last week about how to deal with feelings of overwhelm, wouldn't you know that I'd be put in a place of having to walk my talk.
While taking advantage of some freed-up non-family time, it would appear that my enthusiasm got the better of me, and I bit off a little more than I could chew. As my level of self-imposed expectations rose higher (all the while feeling like my chest was wide open and my head was too full) little did I realize that my internal comfort zone was about to reign me in. After a couple days of frenetic activity and scheme-hatching, I felt suddenly exhausted. A few days after that, one thing after another in the external world toppled like fallen trees in my path after a storm. Sick kids, broken computer, unexpected lengthy errands, personal issues... all leading me to question and doubt the choices I'm making about how I spend my time and energy (and ask for help, which I gratefully received).
The majority of support I received echoed a similar message of stepping back, taking a breath, observing what lessons I can learn here before I move on to the next stage of growth, which is surely coming. No doubt.
The sensations I experienced primarily in my upper body indicated to me that I was losing my grounding in a big way.. losing contact with the earth and basic self- care activities. When I'm excited about stuff (or anxious), and thoroughly immersed in a project, especially if I'm alone, I just don't take care of myself.. I don't eat well, or exercise. It's a tough lesson to learn, and one that will only knock me upside the head even harder as I grow older.
And so, with that, I'm off to make myself a healthy lunch, and get back to where I left off ... a little at a time.
While taking advantage of some freed-up non-family time, it would appear that my enthusiasm got the better of me, and I bit off a little more than I could chew. As my level of self-imposed expectations rose higher (all the while feeling like my chest was wide open and my head was too full) little did I realize that my internal comfort zone was about to reign me in. After a couple days of frenetic activity and scheme-hatching, I felt suddenly exhausted. A few days after that, one thing after another in the external world toppled like fallen trees in my path after a storm. Sick kids, broken computer, unexpected lengthy errands, personal issues... all leading me to question and doubt the choices I'm making about how I spend my time and energy (and ask for help, which I gratefully received).
The majority of support I received echoed a similar message of stepping back, taking a breath, observing what lessons I can learn here before I move on to the next stage of growth, which is surely coming. No doubt.
The sensations I experienced primarily in my upper body indicated to me that I was losing my grounding in a big way.. losing contact with the earth and basic self- care activities. When I'm excited about stuff (or anxious), and thoroughly immersed in a project, especially if I'm alone, I just don't take care of myself.. I don't eat well, or exercise. It's a tough lesson to learn, and one that will only knock me upside the head even harder as I grow older.
And so, with that, I'm off to make myself a healthy lunch, and get back to where I left off ... a little at a time.
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Powerful insights there. Life is just one lesson after another - I am lucky in that I love learning - though not always at the time!
Great post.
Indeed.. I'm fortunate in that way as well. As one friend's bumper sticker proclaims: "Oh no! Not another learning experience!"
Gina,
I had a similar issue in the past couple of days....hurricane brewing, sick dad, kid getting ready for school, my brother purchases new pet for my daughter and Oh-I had some great ideas for my business. Well, next thing I know, I woke up with a stuffed up nose. And then when I realized most of these things were already taken care of and/or out of my hands, I was able to release most of it. My nose was cleared up. 3 things that helped me - 1) brief reiki session 2) mediation 3) journaling...oh, and did some yoga. Oh I almost forgot one more thing. I had purchased some color cards from another holistic healer - Arlene Arnold (http://www.transformationaltools.com) and I received them on Saturday. So that night, I sat in meditation for a few minutes and then did the exercise with the color cards. WOW! They were right on track and helped me realize that I was were I needed to be and some things I could use work on in my life.
It sounds like you are better Gina and that is terrific. We have to remember that we are human and at times, we all need support and help from others to get us to realize our path or even next step.
I appreciate you Gina and your work. Keep it up!
In Appreciation,
Teresa Morrow
Must be contagious, and Oh my! Yes, you had the hurricane as well as the other things going on! (how's your dad?) So glad you found (and shared) tools that helped you!
Sometimes I think that the real value of our lives is not about the particulars and achievements we focus on, but how we deal with our challenges.. the connections we make when we reach out to other people, and the magic generated when we overcome our obstacles and fears. All of which serve to bring us back to One-ness... it's not in the checked-off to-do lists.
Thank you, as always, for your kind and thoughtful words.
G